Family worries

I was supposed to meet my mother yesterday for a quiet late afternoon and evening. We'd agreed that she'd come to my place, because that's less stressful for her than knowing that I'm waiting in a café. But then she called me, to tell me that she was feeling very sick - fever, vomiting, abdominal pain - and going to bed. Since there's an intestinal virus making the rounds right now, I wasn't overly worried. But this morning she called again and told me that she'd called an ambulance last night, shortly after talking to me, and they'd kept her at the hospital. They made a blood test (results unknown as of yet) and CT was scheduled for late this morning.

Since nothing is clear at the moment, I still refuse to panic. Her syptoms could be everything (not appendicitis though, appendix was removed when she was a child) from intestinal virus to the first signs of organic breakdown. But I'm worried of course.

Since I broke off contact with my father (about 4 years ago), I've been occasionally thinking about what to do about him in case my mother falls seriously ill or dies before him. I can't say I know, but what was previously a rather uncomfortable question suddenly looks like it might become a rather pressing problem. Not one that will be easy to solve, especially as I have to go back to Ankara on Monday. I suppose I could postpone my departure to 6 May, if necessary, what wit h1 May being a holiday. I don't like the idea, but I'll do it of course if it's necessary.

One does know what to expect, but it always comes unexpectedly. Shit, really.