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A short wave after a long, long absence
Jan. 26th, 2005 06:54 pmNot that I expect anybody to remember me. It's been almost 10 months - I can hardly believe it. It felt like much less time had passed.
And I don't think I would have thought of looking into LJ, had not a new colleague joined our ranks and (more or less blushingly) admitted during lunch that she likes HP fanfiction. So I (blushingly) told her about ff.net and my stories hosted there. Only to be surprised by the news that my user account has been cancelled. Certainly not by myself, and I have no idea who might have done it. Oh, well. Writing fanfic belongs to a different lifetime anyway, or at least that's what it feels like at the moment.
So I thought that I might have a look at LJ - maybe that account had been wiped out as well, who knows?
But it hasn't, and I read through a bit of my friends page, and then suddenly felt like updating.
This said, it's quite obvious I'm not dead. Neither am I ill or in any other trouble of any kind. It's just that life has taken a completely different turn and I've drifted away from all fandom-related things. Not a bad thing in itself, but I feel more than a little guilty for having disappeared all of a sudden, without even telling people that I meant to take a break. Other people doing exactly the same thing made me quite angry at the time, so I guess some of my LJ friends might have felt the same.
I can't even promise it won't happen again, since I'm not really sure I want to continue updating my LJ. Right now, the thought of updating every now and then seems quite alluring. So let's see.
Funny how after 10 months of absence it's so very difficult to give an account of what has happened in the meantime. Too much to say it all, and too insignificant for me to be able to give a rough sketch of events.
Important things have happened, of course. For one, I returned to working out once the bloody asthma was well under control. Lost 32 pounds in 6 months, without dieting, just by exercising regularly. And boy, does it feel good.
Newfound will to exercise was of course also motivated by Interesting Man from Ministry of Interior (I found the entry regarding him extremely funny from my present point of view), with whom I'm currently having an affair. He's married. Yes, I know some of you won't like that at all. I supposed I wouldn't like it if I were married and on the other side, so to speak. But it's a rather important part of my life right now, so I somehow have to mention it. Anyway, I don't intend to make him leave his wife or have his children, so maybe that counts as attenuating circumstance.
Job is getting better and better, with the rather concrete possibility of a promotion this autumn. I've been travelling a lot since May (to exotic places like Moscow, Belgrade, Kiev, Sarajevo, Cairo and some others), to have a look at our embassies and the way they handle the delicate matter of residence permits and visas. Besides the work, there was always a possibility to do a bit of sightseeing, and I've totally fallen in love with Belgrade and Kiev. Moscow, OTOH, is a total nightmare.
Family is fine - I still don't speak to my father, which makes it (and me) all the finer. Both nephews seem to have had an emotional growth spurt, especially the younger one, Daniel, with whom I have developed a wonderfully close relationship.
Ze boyz are also fine. It seems they've grown used to my frequent absences. Not that they suffer much, as Janine spends a lot of time at my place when I'm away and has become sort of a surrogate Mother Goddess to them.
Right now I'm on night duty; it seems that this is going to be a quiet night. I ought to write the report about the trip to Cairo (yes, those trips, pleasant though they are, entail the obligation to write a report which is simply GAH!) but somehow don't feel like it. Maybe later. Or maybe next weekend. It just has to be done before the next trip, otherwise I'd mix it all up in my memory. So perhaps I might risk a look at some fanfic site...
Strange evening, indeed. But it's been wonderful to read you people's entries again, after such a long time.
And I don't think I would have thought of looking into LJ, had not a new colleague joined our ranks and (more or less blushingly) admitted during lunch that she likes HP fanfiction. So I (blushingly) told her about ff.net and my stories hosted there. Only to be surprised by the news that my user account has been cancelled. Certainly not by myself, and I have no idea who might have done it. Oh, well. Writing fanfic belongs to a different lifetime anyway, or at least that's what it feels like at the moment.
So I thought that I might have a look at LJ - maybe that account had been wiped out as well, who knows?
But it hasn't, and I read through a bit of my friends page, and then suddenly felt like updating.
This said, it's quite obvious I'm not dead. Neither am I ill or in any other trouble of any kind. It's just that life has taken a completely different turn and I've drifted away from all fandom-related things. Not a bad thing in itself, but I feel more than a little guilty for having disappeared all of a sudden, without even telling people that I meant to take a break. Other people doing exactly the same thing made me quite angry at the time, so I guess some of my LJ friends might have felt the same.
I can't even promise it won't happen again, since I'm not really sure I want to continue updating my LJ. Right now, the thought of updating every now and then seems quite alluring. So let's see.
Funny how after 10 months of absence it's so very difficult to give an account of what has happened in the meantime. Too much to say it all, and too insignificant for me to be able to give a rough sketch of events.
Important things have happened, of course. For one, I returned to working out once the bloody asthma was well under control. Lost 32 pounds in 6 months, without dieting, just by exercising regularly. And boy, does it feel good.
Newfound will to exercise was of course also motivated by Interesting Man from Ministry of Interior (I found the entry regarding him extremely funny from my present point of view), with whom I'm currently having an affair. He's married. Yes, I know some of you won't like that at all. I supposed I wouldn't like it if I were married and on the other side, so to speak. But it's a rather important part of my life right now, so I somehow have to mention it. Anyway, I don't intend to make him leave his wife or have his children, so maybe that counts as attenuating circumstance.
Job is getting better and better, with the rather concrete possibility of a promotion this autumn. I've been travelling a lot since May (to exotic places like Moscow, Belgrade, Kiev, Sarajevo, Cairo and some others), to have a look at our embassies and the way they handle the delicate matter of residence permits and visas. Besides the work, there was always a possibility to do a bit of sightseeing, and I've totally fallen in love with Belgrade and Kiev. Moscow, OTOH, is a total nightmare.
Family is fine - I still don't speak to my father, which makes it (and me) all the finer. Both nephews seem to have had an emotional growth spurt, especially the younger one, Daniel, with whom I have developed a wonderfully close relationship.
Ze boyz are also fine. It seems they've grown used to my frequent absences. Not that they suffer much, as Janine spends a lot of time at my place when I'm away and has become sort of a surrogate Mother Goddess to them.
Right now I'm on night duty; it seems that this is going to be a quiet night. I ought to write the report about the trip to Cairo (yes, those trips, pleasant though they are, entail the obligation to write a report which is simply GAH!) but somehow don't feel like it. Maybe later. Or maybe next weekend. It just has to be done before the next trip, otherwise I'd mix it all up in my memory. So perhaps I might risk a look at some fanfic site...
Strange evening, indeed. But it's been wonderful to read you people's entries again, after such a long time.
